When did i lose control. I had it. I know i did. I said i did so i must of. Then i looked up....wait. Looked up? When did i stop being up? I was in control. From down here i controlled it. Down? I said it again. Down... Odd. Do not remember the down part. Then who has control? and when did i lose it? Did i really ever have it?
The many thoughts that keep my mind a stir. Why do the taunt me in this way? What do i do to get the control i thought i had back?
I keep thinking about how to get it back. New plan. Don't think about it and it will come back. Control is like Karma. I pay for what i do wrong. That i know. Control will come back, but when?
